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Friday, October 17, 2008

11:41 PM

Mock exams are a consipiracy by the management to, yes you guessed it, mock and ridicule our academic incompetency. Econ was manageable, lit was a hour of stoning, geog was a no-show and math today was deeesgusting. Not only do they disrupt your normal revision time, you start panicking because there's a whole load of content you need to re-cover again (post prelim knowlege rusts like a moist iron bar). This week can be akin to refrigerator time- chill in library, freeze in library, frozen, come out to thaw, defrost. Repeat cycle.

Class girl time have been dominating the week - been seeing the girls almost daily, whether to chit chat, get distracted, or just studying furiously. Speaking of furious, I have yet to come to terms with the fact that I have in some sense risen in the eyes of some because of my diplomatic ability to tell people off. Don't get me wrong; I detest to be seen as someone who picks at your faults, albeit the fact that I grudingly have to agree that I can be capable of being frank about it. But as Frippiat and Fishy the best buddies in the world put it,

"It's like you hardly get angry. So like, when you do become mad, people tend to take you seriously."

Annoyance and indignance aside, have you ever considered sacrifices in general? It usually involves some form of giving up, so that another party benefits - maybe at your personal detriment. But someone once told me that sometimes sacrifices are made without expecting anything in return - that's the harder kind to make. Like how Christ died so that we could be saved, even though he was never at fault to begin with. Maybe that's why the greatest thing that anyone could do would be to die for a friend. With respect to sacrifices, why is that we can make other people happier by denying ourselves in some way? It's almost sadistic how you need to experience pain/loss/denial just so another person can be made happier/content. Which brings us to the economic concept of "You are not better off until you made someone else worse off". That would similarly link to the idea of the pursuit of beauty by women throughout the ages. Most of the beauty-enhancing devices such as your famous Victorian corsets, or the tiny bound feet women of China, right down to the extreme cases of some people who amputate their biggie toes just to fit into some designer heels, often cause intense pain, and YET, we still do it.

Is there pain in beauty, then? Poe would have answered my question with his perfect example of the bereaved lover. Sorry readers, I was just thinking aloud. I have such a windy, meandering way of linking things -it's like macro econs in my head, with Mr Billy saying "okay, discusion now...what can go wrong?"

This is such a incoherent post without any linkages, I would attribute it to the caffeine that just kicked in.