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is currently an undergraduate student, and coping with her overwhelming commitments. I like long walks in solitude, cosy chats, usually sleep like a log, and beg your patience in tolerating my versatile humour

It's such an exhilarating feeling knowing that you don't have to wake up early for school on a Monday, which is by far, a well-known fact that it is arguably the suckiest day of the week. I am however, deprived of the privelege to wake up slow because of the commitment that is driving. School is really messing up with my internal clock, I find myself arising early even on weekends and feeling really tired before midnight. What is wrong with me argh. Today's lesson was good, freelance photography as a hobby is definitely coolest in my books, and what a wonderful digression it was while I proved that female drivers do have the edge (at times). I am sort of impatient, wished that I could do my prac really soonsoonbeehoon, so that my weeks are cleared up to catch up with work :/
Was slightly late for Malay today, concession really give you more options and ocassionally save your life. Lit today was almost a waste of time, but yes we must not be complacent mmmm.

I am super tempted to apply for hall already - freedom is a craving and I am energised by its prospects. It is not so much of a need rather than a want, distance is not the issue instead I doubt such an experience would ever come across in my life. Commitments lurk over the horizon, sure as death and let's face it, we all need some slack after our PSLE, Os and As right?

Tuesday and Wednesday are the Long Days - must chiong work right before that. Hmm, presentations coming up, essay drafts due, wth is a thesis statement omg.

I must find my right CCA.

Thus is the conclusion of one of my most perfect Fridays, simply because I enjoyed immensely the company of my favourite army bois for dinner. Sekolah was rather enjoyable actually, apart from the hiccup I had being late for my Lit simply because I walked past the real room twice thinking that it was not the room. I'm starting to feel the pressure from class participation, everyone seems to be well read and opinionated and all debatory while I'm such a opinion pushover :/ English was quite interesting, actually I think all my tutors are fascinating people la. Took the longest MRT ride of my life for tutoring time and was super fidgety for it to finish. And because Jocelyn is so ridiculously absent minded, my half charged phone died on me right before the dinner so I could not contact the guys. ): Luckily Joel and Terence found me! Then we BKed at the Ion which has like super cool iPod outlets to charge your mp3 and listen to them at the same time. I also won $40, 000 today on wheel of fortune! :D and more importantly, I did not break my curfew yayy.

I think I'm actually a very distracted person and this continues to bug me well into my 3rd week of term, often I see people (or rather, one person) with so much ambition and passion that I'm both awed and ashamed at the same time. I'm still not sure wherein my purpose in life lies, although something tells me it's people-oriented. I like people to be happy, I like to make them laugh, and sometimes I also think I have no life because I always think about how to make another person's day. Of course this is almost comparable to trying to please others, but hey, in an age of self-centeredness (Nobody, Nobody but Me) is this really a bad thing?

Of course I also had my slight hiccups during the week, when people try to take advantage of a giving nature - my mother never fails to remind me that "there is no need to be so honest". However, being so competitive also makes me feel guilty at the same time.

My knee is healing well, although I have done nothing to aid it. In fact I sprinted for the BTC that day from CL all the way to LT13 under 5 minutes, when I reached home I felt like puking. Hopefully it will not die on me during FB next week (which I am still not sure if it's the best thing for me to join).

I think this week flew by rather quickly! Tomorrow will be best friend time with our favourite activity of badminton which we only play twice a year HAHA, because her schedule is busier than mine. And hopefully an Ashton's treat! (:

Derk mentioned that I seem to be happier now. Mm, I think so too, although of course my weeks are as eventful as ever and I do have my highs and lows, but as Mr Leong once said during retreat,
Pain is good, it means you are alive. And thus I like being alive, because it means I am full of God's love and ready to share and spread it to others.

:)

During a certain tutorial today:

(after friendly exchanges, we are writing our personal details on the paper)
Girl (looks over): WHAT. is that?
Me: (confused) Er, my name?
Girl: (frown) why is it like THAT?
Me: Because I'm Indian.
Girl: (After a super long pause) Oh, so you are Indian.
Me: Ya.
Girl: So why isn't your name Indian?
Me: I'm Catholic.
Girl: Interesting.

She thought I was Malay. Omg. OMG. For the umpteenth time already. I should totally become fluent in Malay and talk flawlessly so I can trick people next time man. BAGUS.

First day of tutorials today. I like my classes! (: It's a lot more indepedent here, compared to JC because you actually are obligated to read up prior to coming so that you can "intellectually contribute", something which I failed to do during SEA tut where so many of them were having intellectual Wimbledon. Bah. Malay was super interesting, I laughed a whole lot and my mind is swarming with "siapa, apa, ini, itu, sini, sana" I should start speaking to any possible person who looks the slightest bit non-Chinese so I can improve.

Everybody was mugging today in CL it was keraaazeee, I think I know what Carol meant when she said uni = consistency of A level mugging for each sem. O M G.

Money woes $$$ >:S (angry pout) It's not as though I'm borrowing something off you, I'm only asking for what is due to me, and you delay it so long. Don't you know I'm financially indept from my parents? Sigh.

Busy week ahead huff huff pant gasp.

Somewhat happy happy start to the week, got a call from the admin office saying that I FINALLY GOT MY TUTORIAL SLOT THAT I WANTED :D:D Yay, no more 5 hour break I is a happy girl time for a happy meal! Other than that, I thought Lit lecture was quite interesting even though it was alot of things jammed into 2 hours, poor people who have no prior knowledge, they seriously will not be able to catch up that easily.
Today was EL lecture which is by far super fun and refreshing because we are always learning new things. Like today we stuffed a spatula in our mouth to check the placement of our tongue, and listened to some Chinese videos. I never fall asleep during EL, only during the break.
Super annoyed at myself because I overslept and was horribly late for da-rye-veeng today could have done more in that lesson because I personally am okay with quiet instructors who minimally guide you even though yes, it's not worth the money. I must not OVERSLEEP AGAIN ):
Tuition was not as tiring as I thought it'd be, girl is super distracted and she knows it, but oh well, I'm ttly doing my part here.
Okay, I should so stop going online cos I'm never productive, end up yakyakyakking.

I MISS DB ALR.
I'm also looking forward to Friday. Huge idiotic grin.

If it wasn't for the horrible bad mood ( think pissed off want to kill somebody with a chopper with a vengence) that I am in right now, this would have been an otherwise chirpy like a bluebird post. However, because I think such people are seriously not worth my energy and emotions, I am not going to waste my time and let it dampen the mood of an eventful weekend. So I am going to ignore all the negativity I feel right now (seriously super bad, I am too angry to even do my favourite activitiy which is sleeping) by recollecting,

Friday
Went down to school for a two hour lecture, delayed because of the rain on my kent ridge parade that left me scuttling like a startled fawn to LT10 where I had to sit with strangers and enunciate words in a monotone. Then to the admin office to settle issues (which is until today, still pending) before I bus-sed over to Vivo with Deborahmona (: We were early, and ravenous rather, so Superdog-ged while waiting for the rest. I heart my class loads (: Even though we are such a nice bunch of people, it's a pity it's so hard to schdule gatherings because of the bane that is Army and uniuni. Had a really hilarious bitching/gossiping sessions at the open place and failed jumpshots before training back.

Saturday
Woke up at an ungodly hour for a Saturday to go for tuition in the morning, before rushing over for CJC JC1 Retreat, with co-facils Alfred and Jeremiah. I thought my group was pretty quiet at first, but then again I'm sure they are all lively and chatty outside of retreat, alot of them looked quite bored but I wouldn't blame them because I similarly felt that way during my retreat. We had mass celebrated by Father Raj (good to see him, and all the lovely teachers) before we ended at around 1030. Then had this seriously funny time hanging up their letters at the foyer under the strict guidance of Brother. Then it was an illegal road rage session with Nikki's driving expertise, where we zoomzoomed over for some prata. Albeit my extreme exhuastion, I felt that I personally gained alot from the retreat now as a facil (waaa I feel old) than when I was a student and personally feel envious of my CJ days. I really feel that when I'm back in CJ, I can be back to my crazy old self shouting lame nonsense and chionging council stuff like in the good old days. Now that I'm in uni, I feel like a really mellowed down and quiet version of myself. Still need to get used to moving around in large groups heh.

Damn pissed now, sorry gotta end this post.

So it hasn't exactly been a "happy schnappy you go girl" kind of mood, if I may quote Cherie. Balloting is a huge pain in my oesophagus, and my placenta as well because of the bureaucracy that slows down any huge organisation. Person A directs me to B, B doesn't know what is going on and asks me to ask A, and we have a circular flow of irritation. You'd think they would just give us a freaking timetable but no-o-o.
2nd week of term, super rush of things to do errands to run people to see notes to print - sort of forces you into Mode Independent but I guess that's why they kept drilling things like the Importance of Filing in school. Thank you teachers.
Tuesday was fun even though I came home like a half drowned fish: After school went for DB training where I carried my first weights and almost died because I ran without stretching. Then it was off for Fabulous Frisbee, I had tonnes of funfunfun in the open field until late, because I took the last shuttle home. There are honestly so many activities that interest me, I want to split myself through binary fusion/fission so that I can at many places at once. BUT dilemma dilemma, hate to make major decisions I love the girls at DB too ):
Lectures are getting more competitive, already my inbox is flooded with all the "interesting questions you students have asked me" (I Did?!?!) and people are seriously mugging their spleens out in level 6, where my amusing ogmates were yeah, camwhoring hahaha ( much to the chagrin of others)
I wish I could fly from place to place, so that my travelling time is reduced and I won't feel so tired from the jerky bus rides. Now I need to sort out my readings which I zapped and start on my EL notes about the tongue and the oral cavity eww super gross video never watching it again.
Retreat on Saturday. Super apprehensive. Plus things to sort out for church. Thanks Derk and Seren for listening to me whine (:

I AM SO ANNOYED THIS HAS BEEN SUCH A HORRIBLE WEEKEND!
CAN'T BELIEVE I SACRIFICED MY ALREADY NEGLIGENT SOCIAL LIFE FOR THINGS THAT ARE NOT EVEN WORTH IT IN THE FIRST PLACE!
FTT WAS SCREWED UP.
INTERVIEW WAS SCREWED UP.
AND TUITION, AS ALWAYS.
Fucking delays in payment.
SO IRRITATED!

I AM ALSO VERY TRIED OF TRYING TO PROJECT MARKETABLE REPLIES BECAUSE I DO NOT THINK THEY ARE SINCERE. IF I SAY I WANT TO HELP PEOPLE MEANS I WANT TO HELP PEOPLE. IF I SAY I WANT TO KNOW ABOUT OTHER CULTURES I WANT TO KNOW ABOUT OTHER CULTURES. IF YOU THINK YOU WANT SOMEONE WHO HAS AMBITION AND SAYS STUFF LIKE OH I WANT TO BE A DOCTOR OR OH I WANT TO BE A FIREMAN THEN IM SORRY BECAUSE I DON'T SEE MYSELF IN SUCH POSITIONS AND I DOUBT THE PPL WHO LIE THEIR WAY THROUGH ALSO WOULD BE EITHER.

AND WHAT IS UP WITH CUTTING UP QUEUE? OMGG. SERIOUSLY WHAT KIND OF PERSON DERIVES PERSONAL SATISFACTION FROM SAVING HIMSELF A FEW MINUTES AT MY EXPENSE. ARE YOU BLIND. CAN'T YOU SEE I'M STANDING THERE AND WAITING FOR MY TURN WHICH YOU TTLY DEPRIVED ME OF. DON'T MAKE ME EMBARRASS YOU BY TAPPING YOU OBVIOUSLY AND RAISING MY VOICE BECAUSE TRUST ME I AM SRSLY CAPABLE OF BEING A BITCH YES SIRREE. AND STALL OWNERS DARE TO ENTERTAIN THEM! SSCREEEWWW IT. IT'S NOT SO MUCH THE COMPLETE IGNORANCE OF BASIC RIGHTS BUT MORE SO THE SOCIAL INDIFFERENCE WHICH CULTIVATES SUCH A DISGUSTING CULTURE.


There. Much better.

What a whirlwind of events! Just sort of sucks you up into a vortex you constantly skirt around. Firstly, let's begin with The Official Start of Week 1 in Uni - one word. WOW. Even though it was only four days of school, I felt like I've been shaken stirred upside down from the very start. The readings are a massive lot! :/ Complain whine whine, I'm basically zapping notes/searching for books in the Central Library almost after every lecture. So proud of myself, completely self-orientated myself around that place - so nice so big you can get lost among the shelves, I like.

Lunch times spent hanging out with the awesomeness that is my OG - it's so nice and heart-warming to have a bunch you can always look forward to after something, staring boredly at their laptop screens or teasing each other about their absurd modules, or even fretting over what textbooks to get. This week has been burnt on driving as well, the instructor this time was for some reason, super calming on my nerves so I fared pretty well which made me a happy girl :D

I went for my first land training on Tuesday, which was by the far the most exhuasting day ever - lectures, lunch, driving, then guess what we did? Nothing much except that we
ran around the campus as part of our slow jog
station time: butterfly kicks, push ups, and I DID MY FIRST ASSISTED PULL UP (MEN'S)
medicine ball training: this was the ultimate killer, I was thoroughly deceived because I honestly stupidly thought it was a foam ball until we did the rowing motion thing and my arms committed suicide
and finally, captain's ball in the carpark!

Training is really, from the bottom of my heart, really fun because of the teammates who make it so - they encourage and motivate us even though it's like reality TV where a bunch of bimbos (okay, maybe only me) are thrust into extreme conditions and have to do their best. Really heart them, but in all honesty The Schedule forces for prioritizing. ):

CSS after that, actually I just went for the food HA HA but eh it was pretty not bad, at least I know two or three souls there so I won't be too lonely if i join.

This week is Shuttle Bus week! (: First trip there I met my nice DB senior who showed around school a bit and the nearest way to LT11, been meeting alot of familiar faces but hardly any time to htht, it's just zooming around. I also got my EZlink card yay (: But now I need to start saving up so I can get my books as well hmm.

I am also deeply saddened by the loss of Amelia Johnson, who is such an inspirational girl/church leader - we never did talk much, except to exchange a few words of hey how ya doing and what's your plan for your youth group, in fact last encounter was at hearts on fire, guess now I won't be seeing her for a long time. I think it's true when they say good people die young, I just wish I didn't have so many good friends sometimes.

Second farewell to Frippiat, who is checking in now as I type. Too many commitments suck my weekend away, missing OG outing tommorrow at ECP because of my test and interview. See how it goes!

P.S Uni really demands alot of priortizing skills, and I am super indecisive so it's not a good combination.

Time to shake off those cobwebs off this unupdated blog! Firstly, I am typing my first post on my new lappie (: Although I am majorly broke and bankrupt and can't even afford a McSpicy anymore, I am very proud that I have gotten it with my hard earned money! (: Ker-ching, yes it's 8 months of uber hard work partially subsidized, I hope this lasts me through my uni years baby.

Oweek officially ended on Friday and had me leaving on almost the last bus back home, exhuasted, aching all over but very excitable and grateful for my new OG: Romeo! (: Even though we were sort of a pretty big group (we should have been called Juliet) and moving around was madness, I really made alot of new friends. Super easy to talk to, plus always out for fun and watching out for each other. Had alot of random hthts now and then which sort of bonded us (and yes, bitching actually bonds). Games I thought were quite interesting and more cool compared to ArtsCamp, Beach Day rain sort of dampended moods but not our rah-rah-ness, Flag was not bad, and OH MY TIAN RED HOUSE WON SO HAPPY PLEASE! Memorable 7 days aye.

I sort of wished I had stayover at least one of the days because night activities are usually more memorable but aiya, stupid stupid commitments oh I hate thee :/

Saturday was FunRow in the morning, I am seriously in awe of the team girls who are like so perfectly sculpted and toned and beautiful limbs of glory :o I am still incredulous that they started out with no experience. Ironically I found FunRow pretty exerting for me, relied alot on upper body strength mah which is negligent in my case heh, but the freshies are really friendly and I love how it's a small cosy group. If only I don't have all this driving and tuition nonsense I definitely wouldn't mind trying but not this sem ): But I will try to go for land training next week if I can make it back to campus on time.

Afternoon I bus-ed over to Jason's place, damn walk up that slope in the scorching sun (already suffering from after effects of camp +beach) and we played frisbee in Ethopian conditions and had a dainty little picnic on itchy grass. Honestly was surprised that everyone could make it, Salameh's and Shan's family commitments and Frip's PS tendencies - yet it was touching to really see everyone tgt again. Sitting at the table with everyone sort of brought back memories aplenty of our havoc meetings that went haywire. Gosh, how I heart you all CA beautiful people <3

Just came back from JB today, totally irritating jam there plus I have alot to say about the new immigration location but I don't want to be politically incorrect so I'd stop here.

Public holiday used to mean freedom and rest, now it just means reschuling. Sigh. Please be more kind to tutors. And I seriously need to speed read books, modules are pretty reading-intensive. Let's hope I get those tutorials in the first round.

As of late, I have been pretty annoyed with myself - over the recurring and nagging thought that crops up due to my complete lack of ambition. Since young, my career paths have been so diverse and fickle that I have sort of given up trying to think of what I really want to do when I grow up. I guess you could say that I'm in a pretty grumpy mood right not accumulated from various factors such as,

1)Sleep
Clearly I am someone who needs alot of the aforementioned to function normally. Oweek camp is not exactly as exhuasting as Arts Camp, but I guess apparating and disapparating off school grounds for all my "extra-cirricular" activities really leaves you super tired. Came home on Thursday night and slept at 10, and last night I hit the haystack right after I came home at 11plus.

2)My tendency to be a walking magnet for accidents
As if pre-camp injuries are not enough, yesterday I just had to strain my ankle and now it's superbly swollen because I disregarded it thinking the pain would subside. And of course, now I'm getting the lecture 101 from parents on over exerting myself etc etc.

3) Bidding for modules
Since this is sort of my virgin experience making decisions independently on my academia, I was very blur and kept hounding Val my new friend from camp on what I can take and what I can't. Bidding is actually quite stressful! It's sort of like watching a live stock market exchange online; the persistent worries of whether our bidding points are high enough, the impulse to login and check the status, the speculation on which modules are popular and which are easier (no exams). Anxiety running high and all this sort of dampened moods Friday, despite the very entertaining QUDDITCH MATCH which R house OWNED action number 2! (:

2 days of Oweek has so far been quite okay I must say, not as hyped up as AC but still pretty nice atmosphere. Plenty of girls in the OG, not much guys - need to get used to moving around in such a big group, but everyone is super friendly and polite (2nd day only right). Bitching sessions actually bond, haha. And so does cracking idiotic jokes, random hibyes in the toilets, and so many hthts with various people that I've just only met. Wish there were more freshie councillors, sort of miss the reggae people too, but oh wells new friends, new beginnings (:

I <3 my OG, I <3 my super enthu R House and I really hope this marks the start of an exiting campus life ahead (:

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