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Wednesday, September 30, 2009

11:25 PM

Amazingly this has got to be one of those really euphoric moments in my lifetime - I rarely feel happy so this is like striking Toto. I guess it's really God's work at play here, and CG today really got me thinking about Faith and Prayer. Okay, so I guess I'm not really a holymoley person even though people seemed to think like that - cos of CA and saying grace and the youth group. So I can't really say that I have an active Prayer life. Maybe I had one, or I used to have one, but I know now that I definitely don't. They say Prayer is a relationship with God, so by that logic, I wouldn't have one with Him right now. Right? Left! I don't think so le. I may not Pray, but I do see God in many situations today even in school. God doesn't have to manifest His presence in flamboyant tadaa moments. In fact for me He likes to touch my life in the forms of Angels in Disguise (Fuel credit) - when I was stuck on my essays, or when I need a break from all the hulabaloo. It's simply quite amazing how coincidental things can be, whenever I feel so tired that I need a timeout, that my tutoring is magically rescheduled. Or like how today during CG I kept fantazing about food HAHA sorry super duper hungry, and guess what? We had a mini international spread of delightful mooncakes, indian sweets, black sesame pie, sticky rice crackers and bubble gum lollipop! (: I was so happy just looking at all the food I gave thanks to God. Then as I was waiting for the shuttle home, Mr Foo so coincidentally called so talktalktalk the entire ride home! It was just a good day I feel, those days when everything just falls into place no matter how rough it was at first, and you feel so grateful you want to sing and shout praise.
I guess that means even though I lack in Prayer, I still have Faith. They said P should be a platform on which F can be furthered. But if you keep praying without any faith, then no point in that also right? But okay la, also quite bad if you keep having all the Faith you have, but you don't credit it with Prayer. Also I don't think Prayer should be all about Requests but also Thanksgiving. After having my share of major crisis last year, I think I should be grateful for it because it put so much of perspective in my life and made me see the same old things with new eyes. So to think that everything happens for a reason, is also Faith in itself. And to say Prayers believing in them? Faith too.
I'm so spiritually high right now I could just neglect my readings for tomorrow, in fact I don't even feel anxious about anything right now because I've placed all my worries now in Him.
Let go, Let God.
(: