A voice was heard in Ramah.

This cat is HDB approved.

and i thank you, lord.

Friday, January 08, 2010

11:46 AM

Despite the growing skeptism, disbelief, refuting, questioning, doubting - sometimes He really makes his presence known. In one week I can go through from a total down to a smiley face up and that is quite wonderful in that sense. Wonderful because no matter how depressed, upset, disappointed and spiritually empty one may feel, there's also a special force (even if one may not acknowledge it as a higher one) that gives you that feeling. That community that's behind you, praying, caring, kind words and concerned questions, to rope you in, involve you.

Mixed feelings about starting sem now. On one hand, I feel excited, after all December was spent with a new found group of friends with whom meetups have been constant in the name of CAW - taking a module with them, seeing them at lectures/tutorials. And on the other, the growing divide of the OG, whom I've never had the chance to see at all, neither will I be taking common mods except the few faithfuls of course.

And besides all the confused friendship ties of varying social circles, perhaps there is a resentment and discontent with this bitter recurrent cycle - the launch into another 12/15 weeks of travelling, projects, deck lunches, late nights and petty fights. Too bad we don't have any other option huh.

Holidays have been gratefully awesome I can say - this is the first time I'm actually going out regularly and the feeling of going to bed at night knowing that you have Time on your hands and can tweak your schedule is great. Carolling, house visits, seeing my beautiful CJC people, eating out, Bugis <3, catching up with old friends, one day escape to JB, SPCA - this is truly, what a break should encapsulate. A temporary retreat and repriortizing what Life should really be about. Thank you, God. I am very grateful.

Of course, as with anything, there's also the usual hiccups, and tutoring may turn out to be a problem now - without a source of income, I guess I may have to resign my fate at the UCC. I wish money could fall from the sky sometimes.

P.S The train ride home was very entertaining yesterday - there was this hyper kid next to us who was "at the phase where colours and moving objects excite him" and was practically squealing with excitment at the HDB flats and carparks. After which we amused ourselves in a silly game of me tickling him and he keeling over. Thank goodness his grandma was there to literally catch him when he fell.

Kids. Love them, hate them.