A voice was heard in Ramah.

This cat is HDB approved.

mediocre

Sunday, April 25, 2010

6:56 PM

I've known you since young, I've watched you ace everything, I feel kinda in awe every time I'm in your presence - you always seem to have it all, be it looks, brains, leadership, the works.

Now you're acing it as usual, in an entirely new community in a different time zone, with the support of people who probably just got acquainted with you, I'm watching your video, and you still inspire me with your confidence, the poise, the strut and the overwhelming support from the audience.

It just makes a feel, a little, well, inadequate sometimes - with my probably local degree, lack of CCA, another face in the crowd while you're the one that faces the crowd every day.

We're miles apart, and it just sometimes get me thinking,

am I really happy with the way things are? Or is there perhaps, a higher purpose, a nobler cause and greater calling to which I'm either indifferent, or unaware of.

I wish I didn't have such inertia, reluctance to embrace a new horizon, instead I'm a bigfatwuss.

I bet your holidays are more exciting than me, you probably have a jetsetting lifestyle, attending those bigass conferences, meeting other brilliant people, stellar results, stunning presentations, and the vibrancy of your life makes mine pale in comparison.

(pasture's always greener on the other side)

I wish I could just stop comparing and be grateful, but sometimes things like that really stops me in my track. This is the part where you expect me to say, Oh, but at least I'm always near to my friends, and get to eat local food, and be near my family, but well - I just think,

what if I'm not here, but somewhere else?

Would I still be the same person I am.

Just thinking out aloud.

Saturday, April 10, 2010

7:31 PM

People have forgotten that the whole point of journalism is to find the Truth and bring it to the masses.

Now it's just some mass sensationalizing, revenue motivated hype.

panic much.

Wednesday, April 07, 2010

9:28 PM

Feeling a little lousy, because I got my paranoid friend all upset when I didn't reply his sms/phone conveniently died (super strange trend now that I'm excessively twitting/fb-ing after Easter) and he thought I was waiting for him and got all worried and called/offline messaged and texted me.

Hmph, I should really get down to replying smses and picking up calls.

Waiting for Mr Foo to call, I think talking to him is like comprain comprain comprain, lol. We are all such negative people it's scary how we get by life sometimes.

V v tiring week and times ahead, submitted 2113 on Monday and felt really momentarily relieved, now am still working on 3227 which is due Friday and I am screwed seriously Jude save me. Can't believe I have to research for every ___ paragraph it's really madness but I HOPE this pays well, because I'd treat it as revision for the test on Monday.
Gah, sour week much.

Had to skip weekday mass I think A is probably judging me already for ultimate UNtime management, and then when I reached home all I did was to fall asleep, wake up feeling nauseous, throw up and then I guess the ONLY happy thing was that my Threadless tees are here! (:
My family's really happy with the selections, was totally dreading what the men might have to say about unblack shirts, but they are okay with it so I'm happy as can be (:

Dinner was comforting guavas, just eating it made me feel all nostalgic because I used to eat them almost everyday in secondary school before rushing off for HMT.

I keep telling myself that I won't miss anything but I keep doing it all over again. What's wrong with me :/

Need to focus wait later my cap plunge alamak.

Shitshitshit haven't read Vathek and it's Wednesday shitshitshit.

Friday, April 02, 2010

7:37 PM

One of those days when you have Mraz in your system, God in your soul, ~~and deadlines~~. A deep quiet happy calm, that you can only get when you ask to let go and let God.

Very grateful for the people in my life, and for the special girl who is coming back next week (:
I hope I can continue to feel as connected.