A voice was heard in Ramah.

This cat is HDB approved.

12-16

Sunday, July 04, 2010

12:41 AM

Pretty shiok week, I'd say. Last week had a coupla off days, spent it on walking Marina and attending the awesome Fuel (had to wait 20 minutes for the poor SBS with Gerald who was nice enough to wait with me even though had 2 other buses home). Saturday was Giant Day where we blew a sponsored bomb on groceries and stocked up on food. I am a happy girl because my fridge has never looked so welcoming before.

This week I attempted a series of first. Mostly dinner plans I'd say was a little annoyed with how unplanned things were but shrug. Monday night with Nirasha with our dear old Indian food (she looked really corporate in her attire), Tuesday night with Joel my dear brotherhood - talking over dinner about life and the curveballs it throws us and the similar pressures we face all with a gentle scoop of nostalgic ice cream. So far this is one of the few real weeks of holidays I've had and I've nua-ed it away at library, cycling around and doing some soul-searching.

Thursday was the highlight though! (: UBIN with my dear old Jonah, God bless the taxi driver who charged me 7 dollars less. Cycle, summit, shore, lunch (overpriced nasi lemak with diluted sugarcane), bus, Balderdash YAY Jocelyn is a very happy girl.

And of course there was Friday ;)

I've never felt the call to serve a community as strong as I feel it now, not even in IJ or CJ although of course the yields of service far surpasses any superficial glory of the moment. I've talked to people about it as well, and so far Derk's/Mel's opinion resonates strongly with me that when one prays one should be free of any bias whatsoever. This is what I've been praying for too, and today I experienced that great sublime feeling of a completely blank canvas to do His will (: Sharing during Discernment was like coming full circle for me because I encountered the exact same passage during my previous CG and I had a different intrepretation for it.
It's kind of like the song from Jesus Christ Superstar: I don't know how to love Him.
Nope, not in that sense but more of a How Do I Serve Him. Of course I do feel the pressure to do this and that, but what's more important for me right now is to let go and let God. Because I am incapable of making sound decisions so I'm leaving everything in His hands.

On a side note, I baked butter cake (: and have an idea for CA gathering potluck. Need more recipe ideas! And gotta start reading some stuff before school starts argh.